faster

faster, originally uploaded by getawayplans.

there's so much to say that it's all crowding at the gate. a traffic jam of thoughts. multi-thought pile-up on synapse 1-all. take alternate route if available.

i worry about the economy, the jobless rate, foreclosures, and the fast-falling dollar. i worry about my clients- how they'll provide for their families, afford their medications, make it through the next week (much less the next month). where will they go when the sheriff sale is over? i worry after my friends- how they'll keep holding up against the preassures of academia, get through the existential crisis that is our twenties, and avoid the pull of eternal cynicism? i worry about myself- the decisions i make, my shoulder, my relationship with my family, and my bank account. am i just fooling myself here? am i being too selfish?
i think the saying goes that if you aren't worried, you aren't paying attention.

then i go see J. the door closes and for a few hours, everything else falls away. i smile so hard my face hurts and J doesn't seem to mind that i'm a dork 85.7% of the time. J pretty much hung the moon. i can't prove it yet, but i'm close.

it’s 1.47am and I cannot sleep

it’s 1.47am and I cannot sleep, originally uploaded by getawayplans.

i think everyone on my f'list has a song that changed the way they see the world around them. or maybe something they listen to when they need reality to make a little more sense. it really doesn't have to be a song. it could be a book or painting or play, (or even just seeing some stranger's kid jump in a rain puddle while you drink coffee across the street). the song (or story, whathaveyou), translates for us some small sliver of unmitigated truth through the beige static of living. and the impact is something lasting. we take it with us and use it to help frame our experiences going forward.

i think it's just that kind of impact that effected this shot. i'm not sure it really translates on film though. and when i try to explain it, it always comes out trite and woefully incomplete.

last thing, it would be fantastic if we could get an accurate delegate count for the democrat's primary. i'm pulling for obama because i think he's unbeatable against mccain. i don't care what anyone says about clinton's "machine", it's been falling pretty flat so far. also, i just like obama's politics better. OH! and romney's little "vote for a democrat = vote for terrorism" speech at cpac was total bullshit. i wanted to punch my tv. it's like they can't give a logical arguement for half of their issues, so they have to revert to strawmen and ad hominem attacks. then again, i guess that's par for the course. whatever. i'll update later about my voting-on-super-tuesday-drama.