as ghosts would

as ghosts would, originally uploaded by getawayplans.

my brother is in trouble again. and with it, with that phone call, comes this horrible feeling of i-can't-help-you and i-can't-fix-this and, the worst, even-if-i-could-i'm-not-sure-i-want-to.
the last one's the most debilitating. as the oldest, i'm supposed to look out for him or, at least, make mouths at the intention. but there is only so much and so far i can go.
so, yeah, i can't help you now. you're too far off course to find without losing myself along the way. and as much as it kills me to say it, you're a lost cause.
i don't think he'll ever understand how much everyone else has given up for him.

70 and sunset

70 and sunset, originally uploaded by getawayplans.

It's been a hell of a week. I sprained my ankle last Sat and exactly none of my plans had involved sitting still with my foot proped up. Gosh. Exhilerating. But it's mostly well enough now to be up and doing again. Koi's coming down tomorrow. There's a festival in the park, so I think we'll bum around there for a while.

Next weekend I'm getting out of town, heading out to the west coast. I'm so fucking stoked. Still wish I could take the train out there though. The airport just gets less appealing each day.
Anyway, I'll be home for 3 days then back out again for camping and a shoot in the mountains.
Unfortunately, I completely blanked when I scheduled this month. I'll be out of town for the ENTIRE Atlantis Music Conference, (http://www.atlantismusic.com/). Damn.
Then again, it's the west coast. I think I can find ways to distract myself.