Thursday, October 26, 2006

Friday, October 06, 2006

It makes easy sense.

My recent, my lately, has mostly consisted of something akin to snowstatic on tv. Busy, alot of motion and noise, but not much really happening. This morning a guy at worked told me he was working on his second maters degree and considering a third. We laughed about how sick he is of his classes, how ready he is to graduate. Then he asked me what I do outside of work.
My answer came up pathetically short. I'm busy. I'm busy all the time. But what do I really do? God, nothing of any substance. I go out with friends, write constantly. I paint. I... I take care of my family when I can and try not to worry when I can't. But what is that? What does that come down to? When I go, there will be no indellable mark left behind. I want a mark.
Lets see how long this lasts.
I have trouble comitting to people, to ideas, to music, to a full night's sleep.
Let's call this a test.